‘I have a lot of questions for God when I see him’
“My faith, my family and some good friends are what’s getting me through. They’ve helped me a lot. Still, there are times when I get mad at God. I’ll say, ‘God, you have all these angels. Why didn’t you send them down to save my girls?’ I have a lot of questions for God when I see him.
“After they passed, Cynthia came to visit me in a dream. Her girls were with her, and they all looked perfect. Cynthia talked to me. She told me that she was more alive now than she’s ever been. That was a confirmation to me. They’re in heaven.
“I know they’re OK. But it’s just the idea that they’re no longer here physically that hurts so much. Sometimes I laugh to keep from crying. I just wish I could wake up, and it would all be a bad dream.”
— Barbara DeRamus
Barbara’s daughter, Cynthia Morris, and granddaughters, Kirsten Fritch and Breanna Pavlicek, were murdered in 2016. Jesse Dobbs, 22, was indicted in February 2018 for the murder of Kirsten. He also is the primary suspect in the deaths of Cynthia and Breanna.
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