He expresses himself through his music
“One of the ways I learned to deal with my anger is through music. When I rap, I put everything into it. Whatever I’m going through, whatever I’m feeling, I try to express it in my lyrics.
“For the longest time, my mom didn’t like it. I would talk about her in some of my music. How she wasn’t there for me during parts of my life. I would talk about how I never saw my real dad. Or when my grandma gets sick. My mom always hated that I would put any part of the family business into my music.
“But it’s how I express myself. It’s what keeps me from wanting to kill myself. It’s what keeps me off the streets. It’s what keeps me from starting random fights for nothing. It’s what helps me keep my anger in check.
“My mom didn’t believe in my music. But one day, she finally took a chance to sit down and listen to my songs. Sometimes I talk about myself, and what I need to change. Like I’m sorry for never finishing school. I’m sorry for causing so much pain in your life. And when she finally said, hey, I like this, I like your song, it brought me so much joy. It brought tears to my eyes. She told me, you’re actually good. Keep doing it. Keep grinding.
“The lyrics and the message behind my music are the most important thing for me. My music, and what I’ve experienced in life, have inspired me to be better. I want to make up for who I was. Like every bad thing I did in the past.
“I want to spread peace. I want to spread love. I want to spread manners and respect. I want to tell people that there’s more to life than being out there fighting and being so angry, wanting to shoot something or kill somebody. That’s not the way out, you know? You’re either going to end up behind bars or end up dead. Eventually, you’ll get caught. Because what happens in the dark comes to the light, always.”
— Carlos “C-Los” Caldera Jr.
When performing, he goes by C-Los Da Boss. Google the name to find some of his music.
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